Come Join Me

I woke up this morning still thinking about what I saw whilst at Lewisham hospital A and E. This has really hit a nerve and out of all the people there, I was the only one who step up and said something. What is with our HARASSING, that they have stand and stare? Raise your voice people, protect what is right and shout when someone is doing something wrong. It was early evening and I had been sat with a friend in the waiting room for a few hours, so far it had been quite peaceful. There were one or two twitchy people, a few moaning in pain and the neglected elderly women who could do with a wash. As time passed one of the twitchy men was getting restless, his actions and sound getting more boisterous. He gone from 'He looks a bit sketchy', to boisterous crazy. Crazy people are fine, every town has someone that kind of know to the community. You know how to 'handle' them. It's just when they become a bit menacing, you start to feel on edge. This particular man,...

There are days that I wake up and think, I’m just going to stay in bed, there’s nothing for me to get up for, I have nowhere to be. I seem to be having that thought every time I have a day off. And currently, nearly every day is a day off for me. I’m also starting to think, what if i disappear? Just vanish, maybe even die? Nobody will notice. Not for a few weeks at least. I don’t have a regular job, so that won’t be a problem. And I don’t have close friends that see my often for them to notice. At the moment I’ve realised again, that I don’t have anything here. I spent three months away in a different country, not really knowing anyone and ended up feeling a lot better there than I did here.  “Its better to be lonely in a place no one knows you.’ ( A series of emotions you  might  feel....) I’m not going to die. Its just a thought I play with, I haven't planned HOW I will die. So its not even a deep thought…Just a passing one, so maybe vanishing will be a bett...