Im Back!!! Now What?

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I'm back everyone!

I've never felt such sadness and emptiness upon my return. Surprising as I wasn't too sure that I even wanted to go.
I walk into my front door, after being locked out for two hours; all my house mates have left for the holidays so it's just me and a very silent house for a couple of nights.
 I'd lived out of one badly packed suitcase (I really need to evaluate what I pack next time) and now look at my room and think what do I need all this stuff for? (I don't even have that much)- No I'm not going to give up all my possessions and leave. Ill condense it then leave.


  LA was not filled with the excitement that I had expected but when it came to my last week I felt I could have stayed. What LA does have, amongst the homelessness that fills it in certain areas, is the chance of opportunity in the professional field. Everyone you meet is interested in what you do (whether it's to benefit them or not) they are willing to take you out and introduce you to people that might be a good connection.
 I enjoyed my being on my own out there and discovering new things, meeting new people and trying to make fresh track for a brighter career. It brought optimism, even though I didn't come back a star with a Hollywood contract, things look clearer and brighter.
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I doubt I'd want to make LA a permanent home, But I'm sure I will be back at some point in the near future.







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