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It was only a few weeks ago I looked at my hair, fed up. It always seems dry, yet I'm forever moisturising it. It's grown out, but has no shape. It's so bushy it takes forever to do each day. The journey of leaving relaxers and hair straighteners, has been long, and today more woman are embracing their curls and learn how to manage them. I, however was contemplated cutting it short again and thought to revert back to relaxing it after 4 years. Neither I really wanted to do. I'm still learning and trying to find what is best and works well for my hair. I've watched endless amounts of Youtube videos seeking advice from others with curly or unruly hair. But what I need is a miracle! Brown Beauty Talk-special guest,  Subrina Kidd My  prayers were answered.  My hair Angel had come to save me from the woes of my natural curly hair.  The amazing Subrina Kidd, who I'd been introduced to a few years back at the Toni and Guy academy called me to see if I wa

There are days that I wake up and think, I’m just going to stay in bed, there’s nothing for me to get up for, I have nowhere to be. I seem to be having that thought every time I have a day off. And currently, nearly every day is a day off for me. I’m also starting to think, what if i disappear? Just vanish, maybe even die? Nobody will notice. Not for a few weeks at least. I don’t have a regular job, so that won’t be a problem. And I don’t have close friends that see my often for them to notice. At the moment I’ve realised again, that I don’t have anything here. I spent three months away in a different country, not really knowing anyone and ended up feeling a lot better there than I did here.  “Its better to be lonely in a place no one knows you.’ ( A series of emotions you  might  feel....) I’m not going to die. Its just a thought I play with, I haven't planned HOW I will die. So its not even a deep thought…Just a passing one, so maybe vanishing will be a better fit for

Here's a little film I made.

The end of my three months in LA is approaching, 21 days lefts to be exact. I can hear you ask,'Has it been amazing?' 'Will you go back?' 'What did you do?' Well firstly, it was not a long holiday, some of the photos may have made it look like that- but that's what weekends are for, plus I'd be a fool to miss out on not enjoying the glorious  sunshine. Has it been amazing? Honestly...no. I'm here living in a city where I know practically no-one. Amazing would not be the word to describe my time here. It has however been a  bit of a learning curve, I've realised how much of an open minded person I am. I tend to not really know where things are going day to day I like living alone and being able to walk around naked. (I use to be a bit prudish) I find myself in very weird situations more often than I'd like I really don't like being tied down I could easily live in a different country I love meeting new people I should not